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Name: melanie
Gender: Female
Interests: Sunsets & when the sun kisses the sky, frogs, YFC/SFC, Singing, Fireworks, bonfires, playing the guitar, boba/bubbletea, humming, Cotton Candy, Travelling, mangos, Dancing, Vintage, ice cream, Road Trips, chillin on the beach, poetry, peanut butter, pictures n more pictures, all kinds of music, SLEEPING :) and of course,
i cherish my Family & Friends..
who i see the world of..
who i can fulfill destinies..
who i can Change the WORLD with..
and grow old with.
Occupation: Other
Message: message meEmail: email me
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AIM:  bebelanyee
Member Since:
4/28/2004
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| Success
is no longer the augmentation of wealth, power or fame
but
rather it is finding meaning in the littlest of things :
in the kindness of a
stranger,
in the soothing breeze,
in relationships of people,
and
even in grave
mistakes that we are able to learn from!!
GOT SUCCESS!
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| make the journey and be open to it cause if you havent tried.. you havent lived at all!
i cant believe it but im 28 years old! what a life ive had! the good times and the bad! but ive learned so much, ive seen alot, and ive conquered quite a bit! i cant complain... its been rough lately but ive grown to appreciate even the struggles! i love my family. i would do anything for them! its just been unbearable to watch my family break apart little by little... year by year! no one knew... it was our little secret! it ate inside of me! it ate inside of all us! why couldnt we tell anyone? why couldnt we get comfort from those who cared for us like our closest bestest friends? no one understands what separation entails. it doesnt matter how old you are! it hurts! it f'king hurts! when two of your love ones decide that they cant live together anymore, and be with each other... what happens to us... their children! didnt they remember us!? i would wonder initially why didnt they love us anymore to include us in their decision? werent we a family! i guess not! not at that time! not during those 3 excruciating years until the divorce that happened 2 days after my brothers 18 birthday! wowsa. can you believe that! to do it 2 days after your birthday! brings me in tears! i cant imagine what my brother felt! but hey.. it had to happen one of these days. we were living a lie. i just didnt see it.. chose not to.. live to forget each day! but boom.. in your face and had to deal! deal with it alone.. i always felt! i wanted so bad to receive comforting words from another .. other then my brother and sister but couldnt! not allowed! see... i still LOVE and respect my parents! all day and everyday! and i want them to be happy first and foremost! that's why i helped raise my brother, that's why lissa and i pay for a house mortgage that we didnt want in the first place... just to make them happy! in public we were perfect. we acted normal. but my parents were unhappy. trying to cover it up with a blanket but it didnt work anymore! they just had enough!
with a a twin sister... it seems we are invincible together but its that time to let go! me letting go to my sister who recently got married. me letting go to a brother who's off to college in chicage... my letting go of a mother deciding to begin a new life with her side of family... me letting go to what if my parents could get back together... me letting go of all the sadness and anger that i had and simply living to forget or is it learning from the past!? that major part in one's life is to let go! it brings me in tears just thinking about it! letting go to the past that once made me happy and sad! but always keeping it tucked in your pocket.. savoring the memories that should live on!
hey... looking at other families that ive worked with in my career makes my situation not so bad! so i actually have it good! half glass full theory in effect!
let me say that ive been blessed... to grow up with my grandparents, to have traveled across the USA a dozen times via conversion van with 2 other familys i adore, to have had the chance to fly to the philippines seven times already & to get to know my family in PI, to have traveled to all the states in the USA, to have graduated from college, to have a career in therapy, to have loved, and to be loved by great FAMILY AND FRIENDS! you know who you are!!! what can i say... this is just the tip of the mountain my dear! there's so much more to be proud about! but hey... im still young! there's so much out there. yah know what i say...
its a once in a life time opportunity... to have our own lives in our hands!
so no restrictions!
so its time to shine!
thanks for listening! much love... kisses!
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| taking a break from xanga... goodnight!
"don't cry because it's over... SMILE because it happened!"
until next time...
The time has come to say good night,
My how time does fly.
We've had a laugh, perhaps a tear,
and now we hear good-bye.
I really hate to say good night,
for times like these are few.
I wish you Love and Happiness,
In everything you do.
The time has come to say good night,
I hope I've made a friend.
And so we'll say "May God bless you,"
Until we meet again.
-red skelton
sweet dreams my dear!
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| lani... means HEAVEN in hawaii!! yay!
pictures to come soon!
actually more pics from cheng & lawrence so visit them too...
hey i want your pics too!
i miss you lissa, cheng & lawrence! 
but here's a little taste...
  
at the sheraton, the narses nu pad... crescent park & rainbows blesses us everyday!!!
amazing...
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